on/off

a whole 12 hours and abit more of commuting and travelling- train bus plane bus train- and we’re finally in londresss. but i dont feel it yet, and im not sure if the fatigue is getting into me but im getting immensely tired of travelling. i loved revisiting rome, especially during christmas, with some of the best people, and i love that miss neuche is together in a part of the world not singapore, but i think right now, scarily, i really want to burrow a hole somewhere and hibernate for a good few days, alone and away.

its 03h00 and the rest are tucked tight and warm under chongs’ comforter and we’ll possibly be out in the streets in search of a good english breakfast in 6 hours or so, but im just relishing in the familiarity of having computer access and being excessive on randomnation, like deviantart, again. indian food for dinner just now made me miss home. 

i know i am going to miss paris so much, but right now it did not make sense that i travelled 12 hours to get from one unfamiliar place to another, when i just want to jet back home.

do the boogie woogie dance

on chongs’ 21st proper we did a homely birthday thing, in our apartment tucked away in a too-obscure (chongs and mel would agree) corner of paris. we bought wine off the grocer’s shelves, poulet roti and baguette and cheese, mache and jambon secs, and pierre herme cake and macarons (chongs you luckythanggg) and candles from the hot pierreherme guy. we exhausted our supply of zaim’s emergency tealights in the dimlylit room, then afew of the 21 misnomered balloons were unfortunately licked by the flames. i remembered we sat in a circle around the food on the floor, the sofabed folded up to make room for all 6 of us, the space the laundry rack usually stands.

i will remember for a long time the sweet booze, the cloying intoxication, the laziness of the evening in the company of my favourite favourite people (PLUS MINUS AFEW WHO COULDNT MAKE IT IN TIME) at my favourite favourite part in the world. i am so glad we didnt do a dinner thing out, or really anything adventurous at all, because it wouldve made the night alittle less special.

so happy 21st love, youre so very special and the single best thing which came out of library zomg hahahaa I LOVE YOU SOO MUCHHH, and i hope you had a good time that night too♥

OKAY THIS AVERSION TOWARDS MY FRIDAY LESSONS IS VERY WORRYING; IM SKIPPING AGAIN. FOR NO GOOD REASON, AGAIN. actually, no reason at all. i dont even know if i have 50% attendance for all the classes. ogosh if i flunk my fridayclasses i have to stay back a sem to take extra classes, LA. why do i do this to myself, why.

the beat my heart skipped

it is one month away from going back to singapore and i am so unwilling ! but tomorrow, tomorrow (actually in about 8 hours), mag and yux will arrive and henceforth kickstart awesome-decembre. these 2 weeks will be spent tying up all school things, then its MISS NEUCHE IN PARIS, then off to germany, and italy. newyear maybe spent in ireland, but thats still tentative. first, this weekend, amsterdam for some good ol’ chilling with my favourite girls. and then, and then the last few days in paris soaking it up and lastminute shopping and then, its au revoir paris.

how can i have been looking forward to this whole decembre yet so mortified at it finally arriving ?

COS IF YOURE NOT REALLY HERE,

if the fish swam out of the ocean
and grew legs and they started walking
and the apes climbed down from the trees
and grew tall and they started talking

and the stars fell out of the sky
and my tears rolled into the ocean
now im looking for a reason why
you even set my world into motion

EY WHAT TOOK ME SO LONG TO LIKE THIS SONG ! hahaha now its become one of those trickies which i cant make up my mind to make which line to make my msn subnick mmm(: it is a potential ear-worm and i expect i will be listening to it ALOT in the days to come. i like having new ear-worms ! its been thunder and bodies of water and linkinpark for tooo long hahahaa.

’cause if youre not really here
then the stars don’t even matter
now im filled to the top with fear
but its all just a bunch of matter
’cause if you’re not really here
then i dont want to be either
i wanna be next to you
black and gold black and gold black and gold