two oh oh eight

happynewyear, you

its been a great year(:

show me a garden thats bursting into life

so like, what happens when youre sad ? do you be sad, or do you hide it ? if you be sad, youre being emo and kinda retarded cos really, being sad doesnt help anything. it doesnt improve doesnt change doesnt alter. if you dont be sad despite your feeling sad its kinda like hiding your feelings, and thats pretty unhealthy, and theres this huge-ass self-indulgent part of everyone i think which needs people to baby them alittle when theyre down -you know, shower alittle attention cos being alone on top of being sad is perhaps the saddest thing.

sometimes its like, now im sad, okay so then what ? a sad person shouldnt be worrying about these !

whatever happened to Amelia Earheart ? (who holds the stars up in the sky ?)

almost a hundred songs i think, 7 hours straight. my throat can bleed to death, but i’ll still be in mad delirium. nothing can be more cathartic than screaming at the top of your lungs. our repertoire had increased/regressed, we’re exploring depths and discovering new old songs. im hiiiigh((:

KBOX IS (moneysucking) ♥

memories and dust

the titles a pun, an allusion to the golden compass, also known as the most torturous two (three?) hours of my life, trapped in the COLDEST theatre ever, awfully sleep-deprived and drained from flight and shopping and hence in no mood whatsoever for eliomiofioshio-meters and seraphinas and talking animals. so i was trying to sleep, curled in a rather uncomfy theatre chair and being miserable,

 

and thats gotta be the worst part of the trip. hahaa save for that, bangkok was a blast. minus the reservations initially about travel companions im not thaaat familiar with (theyre great to be with afterall !) and the stupid decision to catch half an hours sleep before the flight, its been a waaay nice respite.

much of the time we split into pairs to comb the areas and for once shopping was like, a duty, read: I CAME ALL THE WAY HERE SO I BETTER MAKE IT WORTH IT. an otherworldly experience, almost, and cos shopping overseas was always like playing with monopoly money it was like upside-down, heehee if you get what i mean. vanessa, eileen and newfound friend alicia were mean shopping partners and the last day i breathed in too much varnish fumes i think, i couldnt stop laughing ha haa. i wish id bought more though. more more more more ! shopping is The Solution to all things bad, and a gorgeous way to round up the year. ohmy and the winlose/draw and uno games the last night, sizzlers and the salad bar, and dunkindonuts ! ((: i miss bangkok (sortof) already, even though i missed singapore like mad when i was there, esp at night. being away from your cell and facebook and msn and all that is sort of empowering, in the weirdest way, like you dont have to be accountable to anyone or anything and for those few days its All About You, and thats a special something i think we all need everynow and then dont you think.

 

right now i cant wait for more get-togethers as the year draws to an end, with the festivities steaming up and i can smell the plastic christmas trees(: someone bring on snowflakes and red-nosed reindeers already !

oh, whine !

have you ever felt like your skin is decaying by the moment with every breath youre taking, owing to the 5 million breakouts youre having simultaneously, and youre bloated from mushrooms and peas (not satisfied though), and your hair feels shit-dry cos of the aircon, and your face just ballooned in the matter of weeks, and your fats seem almost viscuous, fluid around your body as you flip your pages of readings, and you seemed to have been pissy and curt to everyone who tried talking to you (and feel incredibly sorry after), and youre reading your notes your head screaming, “I DONT CARE I DONT CARE ABOUT CHILD LABOR!” and everything is just disgusting-disgusting.

even my uterus feels tired, the way it does everytime im having my period):

emile durkheim is Genius

but in the same way that an animal colony whose members embody a continuity of tissue form one individual, every aggregate of individuals who are in continuous contact form a society. this division of labour can then be produced only in the midst of a pre-existing society .. what bring men together are mechanical causes and impulsive forces, such as affinity of blood,  attachment to the same soil, ancestral worship, community of habits, etc. it is only when the group has been formed on these bases that co-operation is organized there. further, the only co-operation possible in the beginning is so intermittent and feeble that social life, if it had no other source, would be without force and without continuity. with stronger reason, the complex co-operation resulting from the division of labour is an ulterior and derived phenomenon. it results from internal movements which are developed in the midst of the mass, when the latter is constituted. it is true that once it appears it tightens the social bonds and makes it a more perfect individuality of society. but this integration supposes another which it replaces. for social units to be able to be differentiated, they must first be attracted or grouped by virtue of the resemblances they present.

italics own.

here belies the problem of the 28th s*ortsclub ! hahaa durkheim is sheer genius, to be able so aptly summarize the one problem we had, for 5 months almost, trying to nip. we should outsource and get him to analyse the club as an organic community, to tell us where we’re lacking and what we should do, so mutual attraction can take place within the many individuals in the club, and indeed really, just so i can have less meetings owing to less problems. if i am not making much sense, it can either be because 1. you have not sat in any of the long drawn-out meetings to understand my frustration or 2. im much too impressed by durkheim’s foresight to string my words coherently.

also, katie melua is love. and so is adding album art to your itunes library. oh-so-therapeutic ! plus i cannot wait for after-Wednesday. 2am dessertbar and packing for bangkok and A Joyful FridayDinner and bangkokkk, finallyfinally. can you telll that i cannot wait can you can youuuu ?? (: