its amazing how the clock numbers just skip and skip when im on the comp, and when im doing readings they just stay put. it must be some funny lawofphysics which i am not aware of, and will never be aware of. id been shamefully unproductive since id woken up, finishing up only half of a stupid reading AND IM SO ANNOYED AT MY LACK OF PRODUCTIVENESS. really reminds me of the diagram in the primaryschool sci textbook,

under which will be the big fat caption: NO WORK IS DONE.

truth is facebook and sgselltrade isnt even that engaging. seriously WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING?? for this whole stupid week and the weeks to follow, i suspect. and everytime my smoobabes tell me theyre busy doing this, studying that, rushing this, preparing that, i feel oddly displaced haha like hm whats happening to my schoolyear.

on a brighter note, i had figured out whens every single midtermpaper ! yayy no more worrying about missed deadlines and shmucks like that(:

p/s the Diet is not going as well as planned.

im not busy and i dont know what id been up to. havent been conscientiously studying either. hooked on jamesblunts 1973, and some others.

oh and, im (trying to be) on a diet. someone, wish me luck.

its one of Those Days. actually sbeen one of Those Weeks and i feel gross and gross, and gross. and i think im just being whiney. im trying to think bigger think wider and in general stop being so self-absorbed and annoying. its never easy to extract yourself from some major self-pitying but its horrid having to be in those phases, even if theyre sporadic. and this had been one of the more horrific phases yet, ha haa.
(lisihui you have to stop being so self-absorbed !)
oh a brighter note, its Recess Week ! finallyyyy. cant wait to catch up on that sleep, and may that sleep bring me greater happiness and self-acceptance. thankyouu, Whoevers Up There.

little can better epitomize a love-hate relationship than that of mine with french. despite a satisfactory level of concentration, i just spent 2hours plus doing a stupid tutorial, and theres still a composition unfinished. im now trying to make sense of imparfait and passe compose and when to use what.
dfkjhfkdjfhdkjfkjfd im so annoyed im blogging.
they say level2 is the hardest level ha ha.

im crazy ive SHITLOADS of notes to clear (and it really takes forever to get through one single money business and socialnetwork article) and i had been online for close to 5 hours doing DONT KNOW WHAT. sometime in between i packed my closet too -and found some forgotten clothes ha haa thankGod for Surprise Stashes. whats wrong with meee why this inertia to mug ! omgg !
well on the bright side, im finally feeling the urgency. and its biting me bad i.e. i cant go to sleep without planning what im gonna do tmr. its been a long while since id felt this guilty about not-mugging and i think, its good. maybe tmr i’ll spend 4 hours online, wed 3 hours etc etc and saturdaynight i’ll start mugging, for real.
acccckkk i dont like the studying part of school ha ha haa.

a bunch of random lines jump out at me everyday all the time at all places. random lines i want to write down on post-its and stick everywhere in my room, maybe cos they sound so quirky so outofthisworld so beautiful, or maybe just strike a chord. at the very least, i want them to go on my msn personal message, though it can house only one at a time.

/your lovers screaming loudly, hear a sound and hit the ground
/whos gonna light up the sky?
/and all the lights start to yellow and fade
/the doctrine of mutual arising; that everything, all the time, is causing everything else
/its been so long, ive lost my taste, say angel come, say lick my face, let fall ur dreams, i’ll play the part, i’ll open this mouth wide, eat your heart
/momentarily im standing froze, then i jump between the gap, land on the platform flat
/dans l’tourbillion dans la vie
/dream catch me when i fall, or i wont come back at all

they dont make sense, not really ha ha.

alors tous deux, on est repartis
dans l’tourbillon de la vie
on a continué à tourner
tous les deux enlacés

i love freeench, even though i suck at it.

todays the first night in the whole week id been at home, and (shaaame on me) it felt alittle strange, like im not doing something i ought to do. been trying to study and been trying to keep track of whats going on in school (disregarding the lecture i skipped today for the MOST ABSURD REASON/s).
agm is over ! whee.
bobo and chongs are leaving tmr, sigh.
i cannot wait for ay0708 to be over, i want to get on with life NOW.

its funny how many people are on facebook during lectures !
and im slightly worse than those facebookers cos im bloggin as well, shame on me.

like a clogged up sewage system im trying to squeeze too many things into too little time and i wish time will stretch itself infinitely so i can
do everything. and still meet people ! like chongs and bobo who’re leaving too too soon. and some overdue hightea buffet, petesplace lunch and chayuan and library date. and dinner with the old man at home,
but at the same time i want to (try to) get to know all those people and am also uncharacteristically psyched about this Fall Into The Drain.
clogged up sewage system !
i need to purge.